forever till forever meets no end

Thursday, November 22, 2007 @10:46 PM

YESTERDAY WAS 1 more month to my birthday :D haha ok that was so random

i totally died at training today. not like i don't already always die but still, i HATE training. i have half a mind to pon tomorrow's. training everyday sucks. pulled left leg hemstring and right leg's joint has something very wrong with it so when i do the kicking stuff it hurts like shit.

my maple still doesn't work but oh wells, i shall make better use of my time until some wonderful person like ivalyn or jia ming or some pro friend of mel's comes to my rescue. i need maple to help me forget about training )): ok whatever i could achieve the same effect with some ranting to some poor soul.

certain things have been happening and i just can't understand why they happen like that. i hate not understanding. and i currently hate my life or rather the part of my life that is devoted to being a gymnast. it sucks i tell you. you go for training and are at the mercy of your coach who isn't very nice all the time. argh whatever some people live sadder lives then me yet they survive better or hide it better. i suck.

holidays aren't exactly the time to emo, but yeah i can't help it. i'm like one of the few people who are stuck in a permenant boot camp. i used to love gym, but i'm kinda getting tired of it, and losing my passion for it. 8 years of gym is finally taking its toll on me.

gah whatever.
and things aren't going very well are they? i wonder how much i will have spoken to you once the holidays have come and gone. bare minimal? i think so.